Many things are causing me anxiety these days and while I would love to pretend everything is "fabulous" its simply not true.
1) Moving - While I am so excited to move and start school and have a new adventure part of me worries if it is the wrong decision. I will be leaving my family, friends, job and everything that is familiar. I get anxious thinking I will be oh so lonely, that after being out of school for a year and that it will be more difficult that I imagined. I will miss my friends and family and especially Byran. Its hard to know what decision is the right decision and if in fact you are making it. While I feel like it is the right decision for me, it does not come without apprehension.
2) Buying a couch - What a dumb thing to feel anxious about! But I have had nightmares about purchasing a couch, I have spent countless hours pursing the internet wondering what type of couch I should purchase. For every positive review about one I find that I like there seems to be a negative... and it sends me in a downward spiral of doubt about what I should buy. Should I purchase a cheap couch or should I spring for something more expensive that will last longer? Why is this causing me so much anxiety. For me a couch represents comfort and relaxation, and being in a new environment those seems like two things I will need which brings me back to my anxiety about moving and being in a new environment.
3) Marathon Training - I committed to too much this summer, I finked around and I didn't train as much as I did last summer. I am starting to get it together and truth me told I always feel under trained and under prepared when it comes time to run the marathon but thinking about completing 26.2 miles in October terrifies me. I have to keep reminding myself that I have done it before and I will do it again. Run through the pain ... right?
In the end I know everything will be alright, but I think I will feel better once I am there and know I can make it instead of anticipating all that can go wrong. Hurray up September 15th, I am ready to get it over with already!
1) Moving - While I am so excited to move and start school and have a new adventure part of me worries if it is the wrong decision. I will be leaving my family, friends, job and everything that is familiar. I get anxious thinking I will be oh so lonely, that after being out of school for a year and that it will be more difficult that I imagined. I will miss my friends and family and especially Byran. Its hard to know what decision is the right decision and if in fact you are making it. While I feel like it is the right decision for me, it does not come without apprehension.
2) Buying a couch - What a dumb thing to feel anxious about! But I have had nightmares about purchasing a couch, I have spent countless hours pursing the internet wondering what type of couch I should purchase. For every positive review about one I find that I like there seems to be a negative... and it sends me in a downward spiral of doubt about what I should buy. Should I purchase a cheap couch or should I spring for something more expensive that will last longer? Why is this causing me so much anxiety. For me a couch represents comfort and relaxation, and being in a new environment those seems like two things I will need which brings me back to my anxiety about moving and being in a new environment.
3) Marathon Training - I committed to too much this summer, I finked around and I didn't train as much as I did last summer. I am starting to get it together and truth me told I always feel under trained and under prepared when it comes time to run the marathon but thinking about completing 26.2 miles in October terrifies me. I have to keep reminding myself that I have done it before and I will do it again. Run through the pain ... right?
In the end I know everything will be alright, but I think I will feel better once I am there and know I can make it instead of anticipating all that can go wrong. Hurray up September 15th, I am ready to get it over with already!